Another 8/29 over!!

8/29/05 - I lost almost everything (90%). I sat in my hotel room and realized these are my only belongings in the world. I was alive,so were my dogs and partner.I lost many friends.

I do not need anyone to call me to remind me. I try to stay a hermit in bed watching movies,so that I do not get exposed to the "remeberance celebrations". I DO NOT WANT TO CELEBRATE ;,DAMN IT!!!

Yet I got a call from one of my siblings that they saw the 4 year rememberance of Katrina on the news. I told her the above paragraph and hung up. We had 2 MRE's left over from the time after Katrina. When we all had to line up for food and water everyday,from the military struggling to survive. My partner decided that eating them on the anniversary would be cool. I found a Katrina Renovation 2005 Merlot bottle of wine a year ago.. She opened it for dinner. I had oatmeal to settle my nausea and sipped some wine. It was dry, sour and bitter.The other MRE can stay in the pantry.

I am healing, although I feel that the condo is a constant reminder of what happened, what I lost and who I lost, the stress of rebuilding,refurnishing, paying bills, money for food, fighting with insurance companies and FEMA.
Yes, the place that I live is my PTSD, anxiety and panic attack trigger.

I plan on moving back home to KY. It is where my family and best friend live and love me.
I will save money to build new life.

You will see me soon. I don't have much to move.
Beedge